No need to apologize. I'm glad to hear you aren't going to rush any decisions. I don't want a divorce either, I understand they happen, and in some cases need to, but I took my vows very seriously as they should be. I too feel that my spouse will be waiting the 2 years if they decide to pursue that option.
1702 you are going to have many many moods and feelings and sometimes all at once..... it's not fun.... especially the crying, screaming mess on the floor days.... but each time you will be a little bit stronger..... until eventually the anxiety leaves and is replaced with some indifference and hope that one day soon they will extract their heads from their asses. lol
I don't remember if you said or not, but are you going to counseling? If not, you should. I really like the counselor I found. He's wonderful at putting things in perspective, yet understands that I don't want a divorce, yet keeps me in check about it still could happen even though I do everything I can to fix the marriage. Which I know, but at least I'm not going down without doing everything I am able to do to help salvage this marriage.
Keep your hope, take time for you (it is very important, and something I didn't quite understand at first), give her space and vent here..... like I said before there are some really good, knowledgeable people here, and everyone means well.
