I have had a really good week. I am no longer breaking down. Amazing on my part. I still get sad at times but the crying and severe depression aren't as bad.
I have started going out more and just GAL. I'm not a bar fly but enjoying the things I used to do. Just enjoying being outside and soending time with my kids. I laugh more and I am smiling frequently and often.
I do not allow H to pick nor do I instigate an arguement. I have a fool proof method for redirecting myself in those situations. When he starts to pick or I feel one coming on I think of a phrase his GF wrote on his FB page and can't help but smile if not chuckle to myself. Its a WTF type of funny, very immature.
I have not asked my H what his plans for the kids were this weekend therefore not giving him the opportunity to lie about them again. He lies about it every weekend he has them. I just said I would like to see them at some point over the weekend for a few hours. I have to work 3rd shift all weekend (Fri-Tues).
I just overall feel really good about my sitch. I have not called him at all this week. I only text him once with a kids pic and once asking him if he needed anything special clothes wise for D for the weekend. He called instead of texting back; which would have been a lot easier in my opinion. He has initaitaed all conversastions and stopped by my house once for no reason.
I have in general just been a happier person since my decision to set my H free. The relief I feel has been amazing. I still miss my H and want more than anything to work this out. He knows how I feel; I am not chasing him any more.
