Talked to a friend of mine last night who ended a 7 year R last year. She told me she went through everything I went through. She understood exactly what I was saying. She told me that a month ago a mutual friend was told by him that he regretted no doing MC not working on it more. But she'd already moved on and he never told her this.
She thinks that I will ultimately decide that I am better off and that he won't change. I don't know that to be true. She also said that she knows several men who decided they didn't want emotionally honest R and are quite happy with a w that doesn't want or need that.
I woke up twice from dreams about him. I tried to stop thinking about the sitch and get some rest. I pictured the stop sign. It's hard. One day we'll all heal. I refuse to be a bitter man hater with 10 cats. I want to heal, learn to be a better partner and grow old with someone.
