As of now, it is a little over 24 hrs since I have had any contact with W. In the last few months, we haven't gone more that a day w/o communicating. Very difficult. Even though all this time has passed, I still miss each and everything about the R.
Last communication was a text which I basically called her out for what she is doing with running away, what she has to lose. I know it isn't what is recommended, but alot of the things that are recommended do nothing.
What i truly feel would work the best and get the most results would be to either file for D myself or tell her to get papers ready and I'll sign. She knows without a doubt, that I refuse to sign papers and she knows that this is going to be a long process to get D.
More than anything, I want my wife to be happy. As hard as it is to say, even if it is without me. I feel torn between why I am feeling the way I do about everything. I am fighting for my marriage because I don't want to look back and think I didn't do everything I could to save it, but on the other hand, am I saying I am not going to sign papers out of spite????
And there is the thought that some of W's decisions are coming from the mental issues I feel she has...
