A lot of friends keep telling me to let go of WAW and the M. They see my intense lows and devastation and lose patience over my sitch. "Her heart's not with you anymore and her actions indicate that she has moved on. Why are you waiting for her?", they say. They realize how much I love WAW by the amount of pain I let myself endure.

The old me would think the same but I read so much about infidelity, relationships and female/male differences that it's grounded me and given me peace. Since WAW has pretty much done everything that's written, I have hope but do realize we are very likely to fall into D due to the "soul mate" nature of her A.

Compared to most sitch here, I have gone NC and LRT. There is very very little conversation with WAW. May be once a fortnight.

My plan since knowing about OM was to center myself and make a clear headed decision. To try and concentrate on myself. This is hard even with LRT.

So I take it in tiny goals that are achievable. Sleep early, I still don't but if I do it makes me feel like I achieved something. Exercise, same story. Enjoy coffee, so I let myself spoil myself. Organize BBQ, it happened. Hobbies, I made the effort to restart my interests.

I still feel devastated, sad and cold, and that there is a massive hole in my heart and huge weight in its place. But I noticed that this week I started to smile a little

H 34 W 27
M 9mth T 8
Separated 1/'12 ILYBNILWY
OM 2/'12