Brit, I know that in the future I'll move on with my life, and be happy again... But one thing is definite. And it isn't about hating women. the trust issue is gone and won't ever be able to return.
you are right, it does take two. but when I cannot figure out what I did and am being blamed for the entire breakdown of our M, how can one move forward. when I am getting blamed for trying to "fix" the things that she said were wrong in the first place. When someone says we don't have fun and do anything together, then rejects any offer to do anything, could make anyone very confused.
I am bitter, extremely bitter. And I don't think it will ever completely go away.
I know I may not have been the picture perfect H, but I am the same person she fell in love with, and then some. If there was OM or she just didn't love me anymore because of her, it would be easier to take than for her to blame me for the breakdown just so she won't have the guilt of her being the reason. the reason she crushed my dreams of marriage and family, her being the reason I am broken, and her being the reason I won't have the R with SD that is so special.
