All I can say is I know. We feel/felt that way too. We have all had our dreams and hopes for the future crushed. We all felt betrayed, tricked, lied to, disappointed, everything you're feeling.
I had to decide that I wallowing in those feelings weren't going to help me heal. Accept that you may never get answers. Accept that you were partly to blame....it can never be one sided. Decide how you want to grow from this situation. Do you want this to make you a stronger person who understands how to be a partner or will you let this turn you into a bitter angry person who hates women?
