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Thanks for the birthday wishes! It was a nice day. Work was crazy after being out of the office for a week but I really do love my new job that I started 2 months ago.

My family took me out to dinner when I got home. My D10 picked the restaurant and we went to a Hard Rock Cafe in town that none of us had been to. Then we walked around downtown for a while. It was nice. My W helped the kids get me gifts which included a certificate for a massage (YES!) and a movie gift card with a note that read "for Family Movie Night". So this weekend we'll all go see Men in Black 3 together. My D picked me out some clothes and wants to go shopping with me to get some more. My D10 is very cool and a great shopper. She'll get me looking good!

My W left me a note the morning of my b-day letting me know they were taking me out and asked if I prefer her hair straight or curly. I thought that was kind of odd to ask but it was nice that she wanted my opinion (I chose curly as that's how it was when we first met).

I also brought up the fact that we will have a few days to ourselves next week with the kids gone and offered to take a day off if she wanted to do anything or tackle a house project. Later the next day, W asked me to take off on Tuesday and we would make a day of it along with dinner to celebrate our 20th anniversary a little early since she will be gone with the kids on our actual anniversary. (they are leaving before so D10 can see the dance recital of her former dance studio w/ friends).

Also, I had told W that I was coming to former home area the weekend of Father's Day because I wanted to be with the kids and not by myself like last year. This conversation was prior to my business trip. W had said she was going to suggest that as well. Yesterday she asked if I could take a few days off to have more time than just the weekend. I told her I'd already done that.

I am cautious to say that I may be approaching a "piecing" stage of things. I am well aware that my W does not have strong feelings for me. She is still distant. She still does not trust me to be sincere in who I am. But...she is trying. She is making efforts to draw close again and we are having conversations and talking about stuff somewhat like we use to. There is a long road ahead still and the squirrel is still very nervous.

I will not get wrapped up in her issues though. I will continue to focus on myself and enjoy life. Hopefully she'll fall in love with me again. If not, I'm still growing, learning and enjoying life more than I have in a long time. Its still a roller coaster, but my stomach is getting use to the twists & turns a good bit more than 2 years ago....