Thank you....I'm not going to lie. It isn't easy. But something happened yesterday when I went somewhere with friends. Unlike going somewhere with my son I didn't feel responsible for making the exp enjoyable. If I didn't feel like talking I was quiet and let someone else take up the slack. And I remembered the bigger world. My sitch was encompassing me...his R with his GF was encompassing me....WHY?
This book Codpendant no more is really helping me. I want to be and happy and whole. That's first. And everytime I think about him even when I think that I want to make amends or say I'm sorry or just be friendly I think. Am I doing this so he'll feel different about me? That's not supporting him as a friend that's manipulation. no.
He may never come back and that may or may not be something he will regret. I made my choices. I told him my feelings. There is nothing I can do but be supportive for him in whatever he chooses to do now. Which means not giving my opinion.
