Don't mean to sound defensive, but even after the last several months, counselors and therapists, family and friends, and even God, I still cannot figure out what happened. Not one thing other that the usual, typical everyday life. I'm not sure if you saw or not, but she had issues with script drugs. and when she stopped(so we could start thinking about more kids), she changed, completely. I feel she got very depressed and saw only the negatives with us.

She fell in love with me because I was a family man, that I helped her with everything, that I loved D like she was my own, and just loved being with them. But afer depression started, she only wanted to be with her D and basically resented me. It was almost like she hated that I was still beside her even when she didn't treat me well. I know it sounds like i am playing the "hero" role, but I'm really not. Other that just fighting to keep our marriage alive the entire time, nothing ever happened that should make her feel otherwise. She either lied to me about how she felt and what she wanted, or the depression caused her to change.
Which I feel could be fixed and our M could possibly be fixed it it was given a chance.

I'm doing my best to give space and detach from the situation. I just pray for a chance for me to "meet her for first time and chance for her to fall back in love with me"
Wish she would watch new movie "the vow".