I'm back, on my own.

[canadianMrs.]

Funny how it just has to be as simple as not being available. Thank you. Ironically I just had a flyer come for road side assitance, so I'll give it to him next time.

H came to see the kids tonight, take them to their activites etc. He was an hour late and I missed my gym class but I didn't say anything. I was annoyed, but didn't let on, I didn't want to make it a reason to have a conversation. When they came back I was in a really good mood and outside doing chores (lately I've been inside so I don't have to see him); I'd made plans I was excited about for the weekend. I messed up with H. He was sharing about an uncoming surgery (funny how when I had life saving surgery he was no help and then while I was recovering he started A. I hope he's not looking for sympathy). I just listened. He told me a few more things. I slipped up once and told him how I had just been voted into our condo board of directors. I don't know why I told him this, and was immediately annoyed with myself. I'm the extrovert out of the 2 of us, usually an open book, but I had been doing very well not sharing anything with him. He had, had no idea whats been going on in my life. It was funny because I saw him eyeing some empty beer/cooler bottles in my garage. I'm sure he's wondering who was over. I wasn't really a drinker when we were together. In fact they were ones I found lying around our neighbourhood. As well, when he left I gave him a box I had in the garage of pictures I didn't want. They were from our wedding, of him and his parents, and him and his groomsmen. He was visibly startled I gave them to him. I slipped up one more time as he said his final good bye to the kids and reminded him of his nieces birthday tomorrow. I had made the decision earlier not to remind him! Augh .A lesson learned today, as well as I have been doing I have to be careful its easy to get my guard down and slip. Luckily tomorrow is a new day!