Thank you. I had a really good time tonight. A few times my thoughts drifted to my sitch and then I thought you know what I'm not going there. All of this is a part of me but I have a lot of other parts too! Just enjoy this moment.
The one person I am now sharing things with is my sister who says she feels like I'm growing in leaps and bounds. It madee feel good. My growth can come of this. I will never know if H is truly happy in this new life for himself and every thing I want for him...I can't engineer happening. And maybe he doesn't want that for himself. I'm being his friend we had good interaction today. I didn't jump on the sentimental bandwagon when he started reminiscing and I didn't say anything about his relationship. Perhaps I shouldn't have brought up the whole "we" comment but I meant it in a pleasant tone.
My friend tonight asked me the status of the D. She doesn't know I had had a change of heart or that he'd even met someone I told her we were just leaving things for a bit. I did tell her he'd met someone and when she started asking she saw I was upset and said never mind better not to talk about that.
