Update. Tomorrow will be 4.5 months separated, and 6 weeks since the " I am am not coming back, ever" bomb. We have arranged to meet up since she tells me there are "things to discuss" although I am not sure what. For those who have read DR, it reminds me of the story of Steve (pages 169 - 170). From my side we need to end this week on, week off deal b/c for at least the summer. She is a teacher and with the summers off will have far more access to the kids than I will, and to see me they will have to make a choice between me and being at home. So I am going to ask her to take the apartment full time. I think details are in previous posts. She won't like it, I am sure, and will accuse me of going back on our agreement, but I will tell her things have changed. It is, I believe, a test as to whether she wants to do what is best for the kids or continue to punish me.
The last 6 weeks I have had two DB coaching sessions, got active on this site, gone dark (except for issues about the kids and kept that to a bare minimum), continued to GAL with some success, and had one encounter with my W where I left with her wanting to talk to me. Pretty good for someone who had it all wrong in January. We have also stopped MC since having the knife twisted every two weeks was not good for my self confidence. The challenge I face for tomorrow is to keep the progress I have made, make sure she understands my position on living arrangements, and politely decline any R or big D talk. If I succeed then maybe I can move into the summer on a high note and build from there.
Wish me luck!
M 53, W 48 T 25, M 18 S 15, D 11 "I'me done!" 6/13/2010 Exit started 8/21/2011 ILYBNILWY W consults with L 9/2011, no papers filed Separated 1/16/2012
