Stuck in Holding Pattern 2

[ben11]

Well it's been a while since I last updated this thread. I'm doing quite good now that everything is over and I'm out of limbo. It's quite liberating really. No more walking on eggshells, or over-analysing every little thing WAS does or doesn't do. I'm doing things for me, and me alone, and it feels great.

Haven't heard from W since our last meetup. Haven't had any kind of urge to hear from her or contact her.

I'm still GALing my heart out and keeping up with the 180s I've felt I needed to perform. Now I KNOW I was doing those things for me. This has probably been the biggest takeaway from the DB experience for me. I've become more of the person I wanted to be, and am continuously finding ways to better myself. It's really too bad my W didn't feel the same way. I know one day she'll regret it, and it will be too late for her. Our imminent D (can file end of sept) was/is her decision, and I can have peace in that.

Thank you again to everyone that took the time to write to me. No one can emphasize in a situation that they've never experienced, so it was great to bounce ideas off of people that have 'been there done that'.