this rocky path WILL smooth out

[zig]

i've worked through this now - feeling a lot calmer and confident that i'm okay going through this -

it's odd, how things come up - and if i can keep myself somewhat calm, even if i'm very emotional, and allow it to sort of flow through me, i come out the other side working through it somehow.

now, of course i realize that it was not so much about h himself not being there to help and support me - it's more about me learning that i can take care of myself. that is something that i am still working through. even though i've been just fine on my own, dealing with stuff - the health stuff - which i had become so mentally helpless about, is of course here to challenge me at the right time, to give me the confidence (through the experience of going through it) that i really am fine on my own

so, one more opportunity to continue building my own inner strength and sense of confidence as i continue to move forward in my own healing.