CV, if you would... I think this might be helpful for you...

Would you be willing to take the time to journal your thoughts specifically on the email your H sent.

How did you feel about it when you first read it?

How do you feel about it now?

When your thoughts change again, consider why.

The content of the email did not change. What is going on at that moment for you, that might causing your thoughts to change?

Notice, the person who is changing your mind... is you...