In-Home Separation, One Year Point

[adinva]

I'm on a business trip with a bunch of colleagues and have been thinking ahead to how things will be when I'm not married. I let my buddies encourage me to get out of my room and hit the town, and I had a meal at the bar by myself two nights ago. Last night there was a big dinner, so I sat next to some of the new guys and had good conversations. I have another half day of meetings to go, and plan to see some of the art and culture in this town before my flight home.

My sense of self is hidden behind strong protections built up when I was very young. I can be myself and seem friendly and carefree but the guard is still always at the ready. Perhaps this is what Cat04's been challenging, and perhaps I'm still defending myself unnecessarily and holding people at arms' length when it's no longer to my advantage. When the comments stung too much I responded in defense of myself, but I still appreciate the comments and the help.

As my buddy pointed out, I don't come here to have sunshine blown up my skirt. I said it before and I'll put my money where my mouth is. Cat04 I do appreciate you!