How long is this ultramarathon anyway?

[jbnati]

E, first of all - very, very nice post. But like I told Val, sorely lacking in smilies. I expect more from you.

All in all, whether I was venting or looking for advice, I think you told me what I needed to hear.

She is conflicted because she knows you're still waiting.

This one hit like a well place throat punch. Oooh! It's not like I haven't heard this before, although possibly in a different form.

We are told to detach here on DB over and over. But truly, it's not an easy concept to grasp.

So, so true. It's a very fine line to walk. I think I've found myself being detached one day and then the next getting sucked back in. Some event will happen that will throw me off track.

I still have to be completely candid and honest with myself. There is no way in the world I would want my W back right now without any changes. Again, I have built an entirely new life for myself - new friends, new activities, and new groups I'm part of. She would have to be on board with my new life. Right now I'm not seeing it. I am not on board with her life right now. That does make it a little easier to detach. Actually it makes it a little easier to be ambivalent.

Stay strong, jb. You're going to be okay.

Thanks, E. I know I am