Might I suggest that you love the person you knew and maybe that is not your husband at this point? Just a thought..
As for the rest? I'd wait until tomorrow to respond. No need to respond now.
Knowing what I know now vs. then? I can almost guarantee you he will not remember the bad things he said or did? Even now he's looking for a reason it's you and not him. He admitted he has a problem. He stopped growing. He knows he needs to though. He has no choice... grow or die.
Let him go in peace. Find a way.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."