BklynMom~ I'm glad you loved my rant, and glad I'm not the only one with those thoughts going through my head! I know love is a choice, but go figure MLCer's think it's some mushy feeling (gee teenager much!).... which is funny H was never all about feelings, but now this is how he feels, and he can't help that, and he has to go with what he feels (since when??). A friend of mine keeps reminding me of the same thing.... don't listen to him he's crazy right now she says. LOL I guess I just need to keep that in the back of my mind at all times!

Brookie~Thank you so much for your words of encouragement! You are so right, this is tough stuff, and these past 7 months have felt like a lifetime! I wish he'd hop on board the clue train right out of crazytown! LOL But I see if that is to happen it will be a looong time cause dear one's got some issues..... deep repressed, what can I go buy so I don't have to face them issues!


T~ Someday I'll remember it's all about control with my teenager.... um...uh... I mean husband... yeah.... of course your W is master at lashing out as is my H, remember they are sharing a script.... both pro bathroom bolters! hahaha

I'm hoping he forgets, or if nothing else I'll come home late all weekend.... can't talk when he's asleep.... but I've noticed over these months how he forgets things, so I will use this to my advantage. grin I'm pretty sure he'll at least be away at one match this weekend.....

*smacks forehead* Darn it! I keep forgetting approach feral cats with caution! *mental note feral cats like to come to YOU, do NOT approach.... I repeat do NOT approach without extreme caution!*

I'm glad everyone enjoyed my rant lol..... sorry that everyone can relate to it...... I do really appreciate all the support, tips and encouragement from everyone on here.

Oh and snodderly~ I went out to water my garden the other day and the hose hangy thing broke off!! LOL So I'm going to invest in one that I can reel in!

I'm happy to report that today I can feel my joy starting to return a bit, I'm starting to get back to my happy place, despite this mess.... again, it helps so much being able to vent here and hearing from you all..... It also helped going to the gym and replaying Gone by Toby Mac about a half dozen times! smile I highly recommend that song, I'm sure it's on youtube if anyone wants to hear it.... it really speaks to the situation!