Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry. You are sounding despondent and that's not like you at all.
I can tell you this for certain....it's NOT you! Examine the 'reasons' these men left. I didn't know about that 2.5 year one. What happened there? We all know what destroyed your M and it had nothing to do with you at all. Roger....well....Roger has his own set of issues. How are those your fault?
There is no way to imagine how you feel exactly, but feeling like there must be something wrong with you is something I completely identify with and I'm again, so sorry you are feeling this way.
Is there anyway to re-frame some things in your mind so they don't seem to daunting?
Starting over? Look at it as an opportunity for a new beginning with endless possibilities.
Not a success? Well, that's debateable. There are plenty of other successes in your life. Yes, the feeling of accomplishing a goal of a settled down life has been eluding you, but in so many other ways you take the prize!
Too many pieces to pick up? Yes, there are a lot of pieces but you AREN'T Humpty Dumpty. You have all your pieces but they are going to have to fit back together differently than they used to.
Redefine your needs and wants.
What do you need to feel more whole? We all know the answer is not a R, right? A R is a want.
Do you think it's time to put more distance between you and Roger and truly move forward? Personally, I do, but that is just me.
There's nothing that says that if you go on a couple of dates with someone else that there would be no possible future for you and Roger after he gets his own stuff straightened out, right?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!