I am so up and down emotionally it is not even funny.
I haven't mentioned before that we work in the same educational facility, so not only do we see each other at home, we see each other during the day as well.
Yesterday our daughter had a choir recital, we attended together and had an enjoyable time. Afterwards we went home and took a walk(her suggestion)while D went out with a friend for something to eat. W treated me well, and usually when we are communicating, it goes well and I feel calmer. But I tend to not break away soon enough and linger. Still no R talks, which makes me leary of what is on her mind. She does talk about the future, and was looking at some concert tickets online the other night, trying to find 2 for us for August concert. I still have these demons though that want to tell me this is all a front by her.
Backing up a bit, this past weekend went fairly well, no talks of leaving or of the R, we just did what would be a normal routine, she did initiate a date for us Saturday night, again had a good time. Came home and ML, but then that is when I started worrying again. I again thought, "Is she just doing this to keep me calm before the storm?"
I'm trying not to go too fast (good thing), but my suspicions tend to show in my feelings (bad thing). I just need to keep working I guess and distance myself when I can, but that is very hard as I don't have many close friends other than my W. She has several of her own though.
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Me:53 W:50 M:29 years T: 30 years Children: S21, D12
