Stand up. Poor and tired, but more than this.

[timbits]

I totally understand how you feel here. My H has severe anxiety and depression. My IC mentioned how she thinks he exhibits some signs of Borderline Personality Disorder. It's incredibly difficult to live with someone with mental illness. It's also even harder to love them so much and see them suffer from it. I also get how you feel like you are starting to see yourself again. It's incredibly exhausting to deal with and I find myself being sucked into it. I don't know who I am anymore. Not that is totally because of the M, but I was taking on so much of his pain and issues that it was edging me out.

I have let a lot of that go. He is responsible for his illness and how he decides to treat it. I can support him, but I can't be responsible for it. His feelings, actions, reactions and pain aren't my fault or responsibility. That was a huge weight off my shoulders when I realized that.

Hugs. You can't make him happy. He has to do that for himself.