Stand up. Poor and tired, but more than this.

[LIO]

addendum:
I guess what is really bothering me is the IC I went to said "Oh I understand now why you say '6 months', you are letting him out there so he can fail."

(6 months from then was usually when he started to hit his moodiness/depression/withdrawn stage) and he is *usually* happier in the summer (the sun helps). So while he moved out a week ago, I figured he would be happy in the summer, then have to experience the regular winter dreariness.

I'm wondering if that is really my motive - to let him fail. I've done everything I could do before to keep him from hitting the bottom before. I would love to see him turn this situation around and thrive, but I can only go off of previous history to predict anything. But I also want him to see how easy he had it. But then is that punishing him or letting him have consequences?...

Gah.

I'm thinking too much about it. I don't quite understand my motive here. I want him to come back, and to figure out what makes him happy. I can't make his happiness switch turn on. But then I feel like I'm caging him too.

I think it was for the best he moved out.
He can experience what it is he needs to. I started to see 'myself' again.

Tailspin, tailspin! Mayday!