WAW learning to be a passenger

[needgrace]

(((big hugs)))

i see myself in your last post.. feeling unloveable, controlling and planning to stay safe, never allowing myself to accept success, nightmares that my W would leave me during the best of our M, pushing her away to stay safe..

i am trying to learn to love myself, to value myself by starting to take care of myself so that i do not get so scared and dependent in the future.

what will be your steps brit to focus on you and your growth? you have already begun... taking ownership is the plunge... the rest are mere steps.

thank you for being vulnerable here, for sharing the things we all get scared to say to ourselves, much less others...

thank you for helping me realize that i have more layers of honesty to get through..

one thing I tell myself... the time is necessary, bc if W were to come back now, we would fall into the same patterns.. i need this time to grow and change so that, if we R, we can create something new and better..