I wish I didn't think about the reality that comes from being 49 and recognizing the slim chance of finding someone else to share my life with.
Irish - don't be silly! I was 53 when I re-entered the dating pool, and I thought the same thing at first - until I became aware of the cornucopia of men out there who thought I was grand. Tall, handsome, smart, sexy men - some my age, some younger, some much too young. Once you get out there, you may be surprised that it's not as bleak as you think.
I applaud you for your devotion to getting your son through high school - now it's time to start preparing for your new life. Get a makeover if you need one, or just a new haircut or color. Start some new challenge, something you've always wanted to do or learn.
You will find love if you want it. Or maybe adventure!
Once you get out there, you may be surprised that it's not as bleak as you think.