In-Home Separation, One Year Point

[adinva]

Cat, you're a sweetheart, but you're very tough on me.

Show me someone who makes it through a year of separation while hoping and trying to save their marriage, experiencing a difficult year at work, and going through the normal chaos of children entering the teen years, and lets it all roll off their back and is fine and I'll show you a liar. In fact, my life was in a challenging stage even when I thought my marriage was fine.

How I change it? Time, patience, forgiving myself when I can't do everything perfectly, doing my best, putting the best face on that I can, basically putting one foot in front of the other until I come out the other side of this.

Thanks for noticing that I'm happiest about my boys. They are the rainbow in my sky. I feel like all the living I've done so far has been leading up to being an amazing mom. I love being in the world so much I couldn't wait to share it with them, and I have so much love and respect for the independent individuals that they showed up as. I'm pretty excited for the time that they are grown up and I can do more just for myself, but at this time in my life being there for them is exactly what I want to be doing.