I had a good day today, mostly, but at the same time emotional and tough. I know, it's strange that it's both at the same time. Let's say the outer world was positive, and my inner world was turbulent. I managed to avoid arguments today though.
But I couldn't hold on to myself enough! I called my H and asked him why he didn't tell me he was having dinner with my parents. I said I didn't mind him having dinner with them, only that I would have liked to have been told by him.
He said he didn't say anything because he just wanted peace, and that besides we are not together anyway - yadayadayada.
He then asked if I could recommend a restaurant, and so forth. I didn't have much to give in energy anyway so it was simple and straight-forward, but I didn't have any suggestions either. It was a 15 minute conversation, and I made damn sure I didn't raise my voice (can't really anyway, as I seem to have some sort of nasal/throat problem going on). I said what I had to say and ended the conversation.
You know, I totally get his need for peace. I get that and I can accept that.
A couple of hours later he called me to apologise for not telling me. I said that I greatly appreciated his apology.
I really did appreciate the effort - in the past he would have left me to stew in my own juices.
After that, I looked into some restaurants. I emailed him some suggestions and ideas for places he can go with my parents.
