Thank you all for the support and good advice. I think that i was just having a couple of down days. I did feel that H was getting too comfortable and it was sort of 'more of the same' from him. Except that i have changed, alot, and i think that it is that strange for my H. Although he has been living at home for almost two months, i have only been home for 4 weeks of that time, and so i don't think he realised the extent of the changes within me, and what i would no longer accept in my life.
We had a very good chat on saturday night about how we communicate and i think that it has helped. H feels that we need to start MC soon, he said that our marriage is his number one priority and that he will do what ever it take in order to have agreat marriage.
This is good, but I'll believe it when i see it actually happening. Actions speak louder than words.
So I had a little backslide, but i think that the damage was actually minimal, infact i think we need to have this R talk. I know that i have been avoiding them, and it's almost like i can't be bothered having them! Maybe i'm being afflicted with a bit of WA syndrome, though i'm not leaving or anything!
So back to basics, i need to remember "Am what I'm about to do going to bring me closer or futher from my goal?"
So what are my goals? I'll have to get back to you, as i'm not really sure myself.
I think the big one is to give H a break and notice the effort and good things he does and tell him when he is doing things right.
Any advice on goals would be great, even some suggestions!!
Thanks you all for being there fore me, i think i would have killed H if i hadn't vent here first.
