Well i'm feeling mighty pissed right now. H is totally giving me the sh!ts! Mostly things are fine, but i'm just getting sick and tired of some of his antics.
Mostly, after a lot of searching we finally got him into a really great treatment program. They did the assessment, and then he was supposed to arange to have his counselling started, well it has been at least 4 weeks since he got the assessment results and as yet he hasn't organised the C stuff AAAHHHHH!!!! I am getting frustrated. His excuse the only time i asked him about it was that the doc hadn't rang him! Oh and that he is so busy in his new job etc, etc. Are his arms broke? NO, so what's stopping him from calling up the doc and setting things in motion.
Taking charge of his treatment and showing committment to getting well is one of my non negoiatables for him being at home.
The next thing that is really, really bothering me is..... Each evening the first thing he does when he gets home is have a beer. It is almost like he can't go without having a drink. Now i know that having one or two beers isn't a prob in itself, but it's every night and it doesn't show me much committment to his Fing treatment. After all alcohol is a bloody depressant!!!
He has also been putting me down around other people. He thinks that it is funny almost like he can't think of anything else to say, so he makes me into a joke.
I just get frustrated and i don't want to have to say anything to him...... He is the one who begged me to give him a chance, he is the one who accepted my conditions and yet he isn't doing the things that he said he would.
I promised myself that i would give him until June to get himself sorted and show me that he is worth me........I expected ups and downs........ but it shows me he just isn't committed.
Sigh, patience, patience, patience........i need to have more!!!
Sorry guys....i'm in a really bad mood and i'm worried that i'll break my keyboard if i don't take a breather......
