Brit, I'm sorry for what you're going through. I went back and read your first post about your sitch. It sounds to me like you had some legitimate issues. It also sounds like you tried to get your H to work on things with you.
Can I ask, what turned things around for you? What made you change your mind and want him back? Aren't you afraid you're going to be right back where you were before even if you do reconcile? I'm just asking because I don't want my sitch to be like yours, but I really don't see how mine can be salvaged.