Well i haven't posted in a while, but i thought you'd be interested to know that i finally heard those three little words!! Yes it's offical, my WAH has told me that he loves me!!
On Friday night i was going out with all the ones from work. H insisted that i call him when i get home, no matter how late it was. Normally i don't do this, i get to emotional after a few and i haven't called H after a night out for at least 6 months. On friday i did.
We had a really go chat, even though i was a little pissed! During the convo, H professed his love. I talked about my fears you see, in a way that i haven't since he came home and he responded very positivly.
I thought it just might have been because it was late and H only said it because i was upset, but on saturday morning he rang to see how i was and he told me that he meant what he said and that he really did love me. On saturday night, during the nightly check in we finished our convo and he didn't say that he loved my, which i was all right with (no expectations), but then he rang back and left me a voice mail telling me that he forgot to tell me ILY, which i thought was really sweet and returned with a text.
Since friday, it's almost as if he has had a revelation and he has been saying ILY at almost every opportunity!
We seem to be heading in the right direction and now i just have to keep the postivie changes going. Why then? I'm not sure, but i think that the time apart has help to show him what he is missing. I also took JJ's advice and sent him a postcard and he really liked that (I'm sending him another one this week!).
I just wanted to share this with you all, he has said that he would like to start MC when i get home, though he said that he believed it was more to find a way for me to learn to trust him, but that he would do anything to help me with that.
We are doing OK. I'm rereading DB while i'm here and it has helped me to see why i want things to work.
