Had a bad weekend after finding out about the boss asking my ex on a date, backslid horribly and keep pushing even though I can see the damage it has caused and is continuing to cause - if only I had found this site earlier in the process.
At 5 months, is it too late - she says we are done, we are never getting back together, and has even asked me herself "can you not see what you are doing by chasing and crowding me?"
The answer is that yes I can, but I cannot seem to help myself - anxiety takes over at levels I have never experienced before and I have what seems like a physical urge to contact her and ask her questions.
For what its worth she has told her sister that she is not ready to date anyone yet - dont know if I should take this as a good sign or not.
The kids also told me that last week Mummy picked them up from school, went back to hers and then she just went to bed. :-( - I dont know if it is me that is causing her to be down or the situation.
I have ordered DR and it arrives today thank god so I can now preoccupy myself with some reading to try and move forward and continue the improvements I have made.
I know I need to give her space but I am worried that moving so far back will just push her to the advances of the boss.
Other reading (I have probably read more in the last 5 month than the preceeding 5 years) shows me that her LL is spending time - how do I do that without pursuing and pressuring, would a day out with the kids be suggested at this point or do I need to step off completely for now?
