Hi girlfriend! I think it is only natural to feel the way you do. Roger was supposed to be all the things your xh couldnt be or didnt want to. Roger was supposed to be...correct, right.
You will find the love of your life. All of this is you getting ready for it. You will have the fine balance you need to achieve a long term companionship. It could be Roger but it may not be him, we will see. Stay positive and strong, xxxx K