Any chance to make it work? I need advice

[sweetbabyred]

So I sent the text regarding the health insurance. I nicely asked him to call if he hadn't already. He responded that he had and I thanked him for doing so.

Approximately 30 minutes later he called, asking if I could go over to the house to straighten it up for a house showing. He'd already declined it, but would get them to reschedule if I could get there. He said he was extremely busy, had a dr's appt., etc.

I was at my apartment, less than 5 minutes away, so I agreed. It only took me 15 minutes or so to get it ready to show and I don't want to have to turn down any showings as I'm desperate to get it sold.

Previously, I would have been annoyed that I had to go to the house but decided to look on the bright side and be thankful that he contacted me instead of canceling a showing. I put him completely in control of contact with the real estate company, so I would have had no idea that he canceled a showing.

His LL is words of affirmation, so a little while later I texted him to thank him for going ahead with the showing. He then thanked me for straightening it up for him. So while our interactions were positive, they were brief.

Until yesterday I'd talked to or seen him every day for several days. And while I had no illusions that we were getting back together, it was nice to see him. I know that he thinks he needs to stay away from me so that he can begin his new, happy life, but that doesn't make it any easier.

I've discovered that I really hate dusk. It gets darker and it seems like all the hope I have when it's sunny out just disappears. It's too early to go to sleep, but even when I do there's a good chance that I'll be up at 3 or 4am and not be able to go to sleep.

It didn't matter how bad things got between us last summer, I always slept better when H was in the bed next to me. And for a few nights last week I slept over at the house and had the best sleep I've had in months, even if it was just for a few hours. Now I have to figure out how to sleep on my own again.