Accuray, you are so right and give a great side to things!
I really hope I have a 2nd chance with my H to show him that I can forgive. I see myself forgiving him in many ways now because I'm not so angry anymore. I just get sad and miss him. I miss my best friend.
I just feel he is so far gone that he thinks there is no coming back from this. Yes, if we ever talk on the phone or the first time we do, it is going to be awkward, but then again, the first time we talked on the phone when he was deployed was awkward and the first day he returned from a 7 month deployment was awkward. Even though all those instances were different types of rebuilding the relationship, I feel in a sense it would be a lot of the same rebuilding...except TRUST would need to be restored and of course FORGIVENESS. I wish he could see that light
If I don't have a second chance, I do know that in time I will find that happiness with another man, because I do know I am a great person that honestly...he is a fool for leaving...he's just the only person who can't see that!
M: 27 H: 28 T: 8 yrs M: 6 yrs Sep: 2/18/12 (I have no feelings for you!) EA/PA Uncovered: 2/26/12 H introduces OW to his fam: June H moves ALL stuff out: July
