H met my need for emotional distance when I was younger and uncomfortable with strong emotions. Now I've been through childbirth twice, experienced death and the shortness of life, and had a cancer scare, and he's just plain not there emotionally for me. Worse than not there. I could accept that that was how my marriage was going to be, but then H pulled a switcheroo and told me he didn't feel anything for me and was miserable.
I am holding my head high, fulfilling my obligations with grace and good cheer, acting more mature and being more understanding of him, doing a lot less volunteer work because it was one of his gripes, planning trips and outings with my family and friends. I'm not playing any games to win him back, but I'm going on with my life and keeping the road back into my heart paved and smooth. If he looked, that's what he'd see.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
