New to DB

[bustingout]

I need to figure out what I need without being afraid of the outcome. To let go of the rope. To detach. To go dark. To ACCEPT where I am right now and what my role is and how I can take action to determine the outcome of my children’s happiness and my own. I sought fulfilment in my M, but in my fear I pushed it away. I don’t want my kids to share that part of me. I want them to share the best of me. They are owed that. So i will work to find it.

I know this is only the beginning. I still have so much to learn, to read, to deal with (I actually have not seen my H for 2 months now and we have not spoken for almost two weeks). So there is still a lot ahead. But with you all I think I am ready for this journey. It is happening for a reason.

Good night all. I hope one day I am strong enough to support you all as you have already for me. Much love.