Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry you are feeling so stuck.
In so many ways this breakup seems much harder on you than the D. At least in the D a major line was crossed that caused trust issues. Dealbreaker type stuff. In this, it's just so unresolved. If I had any advice to give it would be...go to counseling. You need a professional to help walk you through your feelings. This had just been too long to be feeling like this.
Like kat said, I think the constant interaction is becoming more of a deterrent to your healing than anything else. I'm really glad to hear that Roger is finding healing and help in his therapy and activities but where does that leave you? STUCK! Stuck watching him get healthy and happy while you spin in the wind.
NO GOOD!
Take care of you. Step back. Something has to be done and only you can do it.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
If I had any advice to give it would be...go to counseling. You need a professional to help walk you through your feelings. This had just been too long to be feeling like this.
