Stronger

[mishka422]

Do you sometimes wake up and feel like the entire world is just spinning out of control and you are sitting on the sidelines watching it happen?

There is no real explanation, it's just this overwhelming feeling I've had over the last few weeks. It's strange. I feel off-kilter and kind of like I'm wandering from one thing to the next without really paying attention to what I'm doing.

I don't like this one bit!!!

There was about an hour yesterday where I was alone at home and had this horrible feeling that everything was going to crash around me. I immediately grabbed my journal and started writing as fast as I could just to get it out of my head. When I was done writing I flung the journal onto my bed and went for a walk. I forgot all about it but later realized I'd left it laying out on the bed. Not open, just not in the drawer where I keep it. I don't think Gabe read it because he hasn't been acting any differently (and trust me, he would if he read it!).

Ugh....just UGH!