I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. I have that hole in the middle of me feeling, too. I was wondering when it might go away. It has been a long while for me, so I'm guessing not any time soon.
This morning I work up and for some odd reason the song "Total Eclipse of the Heart" was in my head. (Maybe because my friends all were excited about the eclipse yesterday.)
But I realized that is what my STBX has had. And I have no control over his feelings! NONE! I am doing my best to move on. And I do read my mantra on my wall: Create a New Beautiful Life For Me. Thanks 25 for that.
Take care of yourself. You will get a little better every day. I promise. Heck, I can say the word divorce in public now and not have a meltdown. Progress indeed!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
