Not new, but starting over again

[robb]

Mach1,

Right now I'm being more positive, and trying not to stress over little things. It has been a good weekend, working to keep the changes going, but a bit hesitant in the trust department right now.

[Hopingtomakeit]

Time heals all wounds....regardless of how much pain we feel. You are strong and will get everything worked out. Things can only get better.

[Hopingtomakeit]

Rob,

How you doing today?

[robb]

I'm up and down Hoping. Today has not been a good one emotionally for me, no real triggers, just let fear and worry take over sometimes.

I guess I should start updating as in a journal entry, so others can keep up. We are still together, had a good weekend really, but I still don't know what to think. I may try to update this evening as to what has happened in the past week. Thanks for asking, how are you doing today?

[robb]

I might as well start making journal entries.

I am so up and down emotionally it is not even funny.

I haven't mentioned before that we work in the same educational facility, so not only do we see each other at home, we see each other during the day as well.

Yesterday our daughter had a choir recital, we attended together and had an enjoyable time. Afterwards we went home and took a walk(her suggestion)while D went out with a friend for something to eat. W treated me well, and usually when we are communicating, it goes well and I feel calmer. But I tend to not break away soon enough and linger. Still no R talks, which makes me leary of what is on her mind. She does talk about the future, and was looking at some concert tickets online the other night, trying to find 2 for us for August concert. I still have these demons though that want to tell me this is all a front by her.

Backing up a bit, this past weekend went fairly well, no talks of leaving or of the R, we just did what would be a normal routine, she did initiate a date for us Saturday night, again had a good time. Came home and ML, but then that is when I started worrying again. I again thought, "Is she just doing this to keep me calm before the storm?"

I'm trying not to go too fast (good thing), but my suspicions tend to show in my feelings (bad thing). I just need to keep working I guess and distance myself when I can, but that is very hard as I don't have many close friends other than my W. She has several of her own though.

Feel free to post comments or ask questions.

[Hopingtomakeit]

Time is on your side. Try and keep your emotions in check and wait to see how she feels about things as you move forward. She is still there right now and wants to spend time with you by what you said above. These are all good things.

Keep it up robb

[robb]

It is tough reading all of these topics about situations people are going through.

We have to keep on keeping on though, can't let it ruin the rest of our lives.

Here's hoping everyone's situation works out for the best. Marriages and families are worth fighting for.

[Hopingtomakeit]

Sounds good!!!! Any plans for the weekend?

[robb]

Sounds good!!!! Any plans for the weekend?

Softball game for me tonight with daughter, school graduation tomorrow. Birthday dinner at home Sunday for our son, turned 22 yesterday. We went out as family to Olive Garden to celebrate last night.

[robb]

I will try to update more later, busy day today.