So today I took the plunge and started gardening. I was going to hire someone but I can't afford it. Like you I have a black thumb. But thought I could weed out stuff from the shrubs and beds. and you know what? It was actually really good! I mean it felt good to get my hands dirty and pull out all the junk and then stand back and see it cleared. I started getting all philosophical about how it's just like DB'ing. haha
anyway I just wanted to encourage you to have a go. I left my phone inside the house. Let the dog round around me while I did it and I felt really really calm.