Didn't think I'd have to come back...

[FreeBird0120]

Well after this weekend, I'm still don't feel any better...

Called h yesterday and by the way it rang then beeped I could tell he was on another line. This was at 4:25pm and as soon as he answered he said"hey I'm on the other line talking to mom." This was on his work phone as his personal was dead, so I let him go marking the time in my head. I checked his call records on his phone this morning and he didn't call his mom until 4:54...

I didn't say anything to him about it, but my heart is sinking. This morning he asked how I slept, and I told him I didn't...he knows I've been having the nightmares again since I found out he'd called he again. I told him it was normal, and that I am basically starting my recovery all over again, and he gave me a sad look and hugged me, kissed me and left for work.

I called and asked him not to be upset and he said that it was hard not to be. I said that I really needed his help this time to recover, and he said he'd do anything I needed. I'm just not sure anymore what it is I need, or what we can do to save this...