hello! I read your post and I wanted to say that it sounds like you've been through A LOT! I, too, live in another country. He has family here but I don't. And there was talk of him possibly taking GF back to our hometown (she really wants to visit)and it gave me chills. I'm saying this to say that I understand what it feels like to be alone. And all you really want is to sit in your mom or sister's house and cry for weeks. Sometimes I think things WOULD be easier if I went home....but I'm not going to let this exp or him rob me of the dream I had of living here.
so.....I know it's hard to make friends especially with a young baby. But I agree go to early start centres, look at churches or local community centers to see if they have play groups. I know where I live there are groups especially for low income or single parents so they don't have to pay a lot to join and can meet people going through the same thing.
also if you start going to soft play centers or play groups you might meet some other parents there. For me, talking to strangers and being friendly was outside my comfort zone...so maybe that can be a 180.
Don't underestimate the stress of living in another country. And now you're going at it alone.
What I've found here is that people will help you to see if the thinking you're doing is growing or beating yourself up and will direct you in the right way. So post all your thoughts here instead of burdening your friends with them.
I'm really glad you're in counselling. Get your head together and get clear on what YOU want in a partner and in a father for DD.
