Another problem is that i don't have any friends nearby (i've cut off contact with all my friends, anyway, cos i couldn't stop talking about H, and felt they were bored with the issue (understandably)), so I really have no one to go with. DD is my only human contact when I'm not at work.
But i'm hopeful...eventually things just have to fall into place...
Isolating yourself at this time is absolutely no good for you or for your daughter.
Rather than cutting off contact with all your friends, why not make one of your 180s that you WILL stop talking about H?
Alternatively, you could ask if they would bear with you for five minutes to rant or moan or whatever and then cut you off?
Is there a play group that you could join? I don't have kids, but I know in most cities and towns where I live there are no-cost early years centres with organized play groups. It would be a great way for both you and D to get some socialization.
And who knows....maybe you will find a great friend with whom you can swap babysitting to get some time for yourseif.
As for things falling into place, in my experience life doesn't work like that. We have to move things in the direction we would like them to go.
me 45 H 46 T 5 M 2.5 BD Sept 6 2011 OW Sept 8 2011 Threw him out Sept 8 2011
