i'm good. i'm fine. more than fine.

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ok peeps.. update on the sitch.

RV continues.. this week's topic was intimacy. awkward? yes. difficult to face up to? yes.

things have been up and down for H and i. we had done some dialogue earlier in the week about trust and forgiveness. it did not go well. and today.. we had an interesting talk.

my mom is having a lunch on saturday for the anniversary of her H's death a year ago (it's an asian thing). i asked H if he wanted to go and he had said.. "i'll get back to you?". as for RV dialogue.. i asked H if he wanted to do some dialogue this week and he said he didn't know.. the topics were deep and he felt like i was trying to change him.

so in the end.. this is what our discussion ended with.. he is coming to lunch at my mom's (he stated he understood if i didn't want him there and i said i wouldn't have mentioned it if i didn't want him to come). as for RV.. i had said that i didn't want to continue w/ RV because i didn't want to continue w/ RV and continue to put myself out there if there was already a set agenda. after much discussion.. i left the decision up to him. he said he didn't know where it will lead but he wanted to continue the journey we started.

forgive.. it's 350am. i am on break at work.

LA - yes i have read wen's thread.. it always sounded so cool so i jumped at the chance to try it out!

thanks everyone.. for the love and support. it's nice not to feel alone.