thank you brooke! Today was especially difficult. I felt as if I was going through this process all over again. He moved out the remaining things from the house and garage into his apt. What hurt more was how happy he was all day. D@mn him!
I had a "aha" moment towards the end of the day.
When my son was constantly sick and in the hospital I was able to manage my emotions because I knew that I wasn't a doctor and my job, what I did have control over was to help my son heal. I never lost it and had so much faith in them.
I see this as the same. I can only handle me! I need to leave it up to my higher power.
He agreed to talk to me about "us" on Tues. I believe I will be going dark after my son's bday. I wouldn't want to anyone to spoil that day.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
