Thank you twom for the kind words. it does feel like being gutted and left alive...while you W stands over you laughing. All I can say is try not to control your W, we can't...we can only control ourselves and our own happiness. My W needs to come to this realization on her own...only then would we even have a chance at R...because our old lives are gone, we cannot go back to that. Only when we both begin to focus on our own happiness, which I am begginning to do, will anything ever get any "better".
I'm convinced my with is in a MLC but that doesn't excuse my role in all this. She needs some serious time to reflect and that may mean we'll never have a chance together. But I know there is still love between us and that we are meant to grow old together, whether in this life...or the next. That's a tough feeling to have when one is trying to move on and GAL...but I can't help it, it's what I feel. Unfortunately, it's going to be one long, bumpy road...but I'm ready for it. I have no choice, do I?
Hang in there my friend...take heed to the wonderful insight and advise this site offers. It can be a life saver.
Me:44, W: 39 D:16, D:14, D:11(special needs) M:17, T:21+ Bomb:3/18/12 W contacted mediator for D:3/27/12 Separate since bomb Mediation, signed agreement 5/17/12 No talk of D since mediation
