Thank you TD because right now I just feel terrible and trying not to be all black and white about it and thinking I've ruined it all.
Yesterday I was on top of the world now I'm just hoping all my hard work hasn't been washed away.
I'm going back to non pursuit. And I'm hoping that what I did and said is worse in my mind than in reality. He doesn't know about these goals I have. So I'm hoping that my texting and calling wasn't as bad as I have been in the past.
Oh dear I know I'm just trying to convince myself can someone say tell me it wasn't that bad? thanks!
